Truly,

I'm just tired.
Tired of this mess of mine
Tired of being like this
Tired of not being comfortable
Tired of that feeling at the pit of my stomach
Tired of my circumstances
What can I say? I'm tired of my life. And all I want to do is forget, yet everything keeps creeping up on me to remind me that this is my reality. And I hate that the most. So, you know what? FUCK IT. It has worn me to my core to keep on caring and keep on bringing up my memories and feelings. All I want is to live and breathe at peace and the only thing that's keep me from doing so, is that I care. I just wish I didn't, but one day I'm going to wake up and I won't have to say I don't care cause I won't.
On a lighter note...
What can I say about this weekend? HAHA, wtf!, Oh shit, and thanks. Thanks for the ride jj, thanks for trying alan, sorry leon=(! Maybe we'll try again next time.

BUT for now I seriously, truly need to forget this shit.

Adventure of my Life.

Right now is just another road block on the adventure of my life. Finally, I think I've realized that even though now seems like the end of the world as my heart breaks, my mind is blown, my stomach sinks, and my life seems to collapse, the worst is hopefully over and there can be nothing but up from here. When I think of the past, the first things that pop into my mind are early morning sunrises, late nights busts, after track hangouts, walks up and down hills, and summer "jogs", not the no ride crisis, popo alerts, or just fucked up people. So I hope a year from now, I can look back and see all the good times and none of the bad times we've had because I want to remember you as my friend not an ass. Right now, may not be good, but I hope it doesn't block the memorable times we had. Somehow things got like this, I know they weren't suppose to cause that's not how we planned it. At first I put all the blame on you, but the games started and you made the first move so here I am playing your game. Hopefully, before it's too late, things will be back to how they were before, cause not-so-secretly, I miss it and I hate how this is.

Ouch,

That hurt. Too fast. Too much emotion. Too little time. Too much thought. Too little moments. What can I say? It didn't go exactly as planned or at all. The ending was inevitable, but did it have to be right now? YES. Yes it did. So the question is what now?