Just when you thought that

everything was fine.

Something inside tells you otherwise.

Life

It's too short and I learned today that you should probably live it with smiles and the least bit of frowns as possible. What do I want for my birthday? One of those days where your whole life changes. Ever seen Breakfast Club? Best movie ever. I want it just like that.

Think, think, think

As I sit here anxiously waiting for kiis fm to stop their little talk show thing every Sunday I wonder, like really wonder how in the world do people let their lives to be a complete disappointment when they can just do a few things to change it. Maybe it's cause they're scared, scared of new problems that are worst than their situation now. Maybe it's because secretly, they enjoy it. Maybe it's cause they really just don't know where to start. Maybe it's cause they're still pondering on their last set of problems, unable to get pass them. Maybe it's because they are unable to see themselve happy. Maybe it's because they can't seem to get others to look at them differently. Maybe it's because they have set themselves to see that this is how life is and they just need to suck it up and deal. And yet the solution will always be right there just a reach away, they just need to get off their butts and realy reach for it. And maybe I'm afraid of the solution.

Farmer's tan!

Oy! I looked in the mirror today and I just noticed the worst farmers tan ever! effin track man. I'm sore in all the wrong place and I have never appreciated water so much in my life. School oh goodness school has been much more than overwhelming. Studying 24/7 and in between classes. Its unimaginable how many people now think I'm crazy cause for a few days I walked around practiving my speech. But goodness I'm exhausted like literally dead almost and I just can't put my finger on why. I mean this is the same thing as last year but last year it was 272830x better. Everything is just way too crazy with everything going on and yet I still find time to obsess over boys yet not do too well on my first math test. But I'm very proud of myself that I didn't yet flip out, partially becasue I'm in denial and partially because everyone else sucked ass too. But man am I just crazily well crazy over something I can not have. Well off to bed and awaiting tomorrow=)